Confessions

Okay, I've got to tell you all something. It is kind of embarrassing, but I'm all about the honesty.

So, most days, I don't have too much to blog about, or even want to. But then there are times where I'd like to write 10 posts a day. But I don't. Because I am an addict. A comment fiend. I will not write a new post unless I have at least 1 comment on my last one. How pathetic is that?

Now, for the psychological breakdown. I have spent a majority of my life trying to please others, and usually feeling like I had failed. I always sought approval from others. I have always wanted to be liked, to be the funny one, or the witty one, or the smart one, or even *gulp* the attractive one. Thanks to the work of God in my life, I have totally moved past those times in my life. Or so I thought. I see now that my love of comments was me trying to get people's approval, acceptance or even just recognition.

One of the most important things I've learned in the past 4+ years, is that I now know where my identity lies. It is not in how I look, how I sound, what I say, or what I've done. My accomplishments, which are great and I have accomplished much -not on my own strength- do not define me. Who I am now, in Christ, is where the real "ME" is. Were it not for His redeeming work on the cross, I would have nothing; be nothing.

I've said it over and over again, but it is true, it is me. I am eternally grateful for the saving grace of Jesus Christ. I continue to be amazed by my God's complete and satisfying interest in my life. He blesses me daily with HIS approval, HIS acceptance HIS recognition. Anything beyond that, is just a bonus.

Now, as we all know, there is nothing wrong with wanting to connect w/ people; that's part of why we blog. There's is lots of good to come from that. As long as I keep my focus, I think I'll be all right. If I want to blog again in an hour (well, I'll be asleep in 5 minutes, but you get the point) If I have a story to share, a word of praise, a need for prayer or just a funny story to write about, I will, regardless of who has read it, cared one bit or commented.